I was ten when I first saw you. A child with pretty eyes, cute nose, and beaming smile. At such age, you were my example of perfection. A modern prince breathed into life.

I watched you grow from a mischievous elf to a charming prince. I’ve seen you tumble, fall, and snore. I smiled at your silly pranks and laughed with your naughty jokes. We even played together like young lovers in the meadow. You held me, and I clung to you. It was simply a fairy tale made true.

As we got closer and closer through the years, I struggled to control my feelings. Your daring moves brought me fear of intimacy. I panicked when you sat beside me, and frenzied when you touched my hands. The thought that I might have read wrong messages from your actions. The fear that you were just playing one of your foolish games. The too-good-to-be-true feeling through the good times. It all formed a labyrinth in my mind. I was circling the dark alleys like a crazy mouse. A whirling motion dizzied me, until it came to a sudden stop. Everything I held most dearly seeped through my hands.

You got busy with your affairs, and I with my own. And I saw it coming. Two shadows parted like birds freeing from an imaginary captivity.

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I wanted to tell you how I felt before. But every time I tried, my tongue tangled like a knot. You once said you liked me more than just a friend. And so I waited for you to say the definite words that will conclude it all. I am still waiting, in fact. Waiting when you will tire out chasing damsels and having dirty fun. I don’t care how much you drink and smoke. I will accept you with my welcoming arms because I know just the comfort you need.

I will wait until you realize that it is only in my arms that you fit best. I will wait until that day when you see how badly I am bleeding. Until you know how much I need someone to cover and heal the wound you lashed in my heart.

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For sure, you will cause me countless heart breaks and aches. In every love affair, probably I will be crying a minute or two. But I will not lose hope. I will be praying that you be my first, and I, your last.

I hope you will have the chance to read this. But then, you may not know this is meant for you. Someday you will. But now, I think I will be contented with hurting and longing from that lost love that I never really had.

It has been four years now since I last glimpsed at your beautiful face. For me, you are still the most beautiful being I have ever set eyes on. And you will stay in my heart as my first love. My "gugmang giatay"!

***You Are 44% Abnormal***

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul.

You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom’s basement.

You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?
http://www.blogthings.com/howabnormalareyouquiz/

***You Have Your Sarcastic Moments***

While you’re not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge.
In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead!
And although you do have your genuine moments, you can’t help getting your zingers in.
Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it’s more likely they think you’re hilarious.

How Sarcastic Are You?
http://www.blogthings.com/howsarcasticareyouquiz/

***You Communicate With Your Eyes***

When you say, "I’ll believe it when I see it" - you really mean it.
For you, what you see is a lot more important than what you hear.
You don’t take someone’s words at face value. You judge people by their facial expressions, body language, and appearance.
You tend to be quiet, but when you talk, you tend to make eye contact and describe things in colorful detail.

How Do You Communicate?
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***What Your Face Says***

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced.

Overall, your true self is reserved and logical.

With friends, you seem logical, detached, and a bit manipulative.

In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.

In stressful situations, you seem cheerful and optimistic.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?
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***Your Dosha is Pitta***

You have a quick mind, a gift for persuasion, and a sharp sense of humor.
You have both the drive and people skills to be a very successful leader.
Argumentative and a bit stubborn, you have been known to be a little too set in your ways.
But while you may be biased toward your own point of view, you are always honest, fair, and ethical.

With friends: You are outgoing and open to anyone who might want to talk to you

In love: You are picky but passionate

To achieve more balance: Be less judgmental of those around you, and take cool walks in the moonlight.

What’s Your Dosha?
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***You Are Mexican Food***

Spicy yet dependable.
You pull punches, but people still love you.

What Kind of Food Are You?
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***What Your Soul Really Looks Like***

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It’s easy for you to forgive and forget.

You are not a very grounded person. You prefer dreams to reality. For you, it’s all about possibilities.

You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you’re a bit full of yourself.

Your near future is all about change, but in very small steps. The end of the journey looks far, but it’s much closer than you realize.

For you, falling in love is all about the adventure and uncertainty. You can only fall in love with someone who keeps you guessing.

Inside the Room of Your Soul
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